Stop right now

I need to be still.

The hustle and bustle of life is getting to me...

QT time. =)

Materialism

Me: I think you've taught me how to be less materialistic
Hubby: Really? =)
Me: Then again, maybe I just changed my mind...
Hubby: Oh, how come?
Me: When I look at your tummy, I feel like buying a treadmill

;P

But I'm guilty too.
So let's go jogging, baby! =D

1:42 AM

I should be in bed. But here I am in blogger.

Hello blog space. Long time no see.

Again, it has been awhile since I last updated. Maybe I'll get this blog going again. Maybe not. We'll try it for awhile and see.
=)

Saved

I was saved..

If only I could..give..

Everything I Own

What would I give to be pure in heart
To be pure in flesh and bone
What would I give to be pure in heart
I’d give everything that I own
I’d rid my whole house of its demons of lust
And open the windows of trust
And out of those windows all fear will have flown
I’d give everything that I own

What would I give for the words of God
To come tumbling from the throne
What would I give for the words of God
I’d give everything that I own
I’d open my head and they’d roll right in
When I opened my mouth they’d roll out again
And uproot the weeds of the deeds I have sown
I’d give everything that I own

Now what would I give for my children’s strength
On the day that they stand alone
I mean what would I give for their strength to stand firm
I’d give everything that I own
I’ve wasted my life in accomplishing things
Ignoring the giver of wings
So Lord teach them to fly to the foot of your throne
I’ll give everything that I own

All I’ve accomplished, the titles I hold
My passions, position, possessions and gold
To God they must look like a thimble of foam
And it’s everything that I own
Dirty rags are all that I own

So I stand before God with my stubble and hay
He just laughs, but says there’s still a way
Because “Father, Forgive” are the words Jesus moaned
When He gave everything that He owned

So what would I give to be pure in heart
For the known to be made unknown
What would I give to be born again?

So what's new?

Since my last post, I have:

a) Gotten engaged
b) Moved to a new city and state
c) Started a new job
d) Bought a new car
e) Scraped my new car against another car
f) Bought a guitar
g) Put on 5 lbs
h) Quit my new job
i) Started another new job

Yup... that's the latest.

Keropok Lekor

Ahh.... happy and contented I am.

Gloriously, Amazingly, Fantastically so.
Seven.
How blessed. How loved.
I have the bestest, and I woudn't ask for anything more.

=)

Baked Ruffles and Strawberry Ice-Cream

I just burned 120smth calories on the treadmill. Hard work, I tell you.

Now I have the license to eat Baked Ruffles and Ice-Cream... hehe.

Won't you remind me..

I feel like I've forgotten. Forgotten about home. The country where I grew up in. The country whom I said I would stand up for. Whom I said I would stand in the gap, to get down on my knees and to intercede. (Ring any bells?)

As a child I remember growing up singing "The Great Awakening" as my favorite past time song. I even gave a "performance" and sang it here in the US in front of a family friend when we were visiting back in 1996. Not too sure if it was the tune that I like or the catchy melody that kept playing in my mind. Maybe both. I remember always picturing home in that song, though. Proclaiming that there's gona be a great awakening, that there's gona be a great revival in this land and that everyone who calls on Jesus will be saved. Only an little 12 year-old. Innocent (ahem..) and unaware of many things. Yet I still brought that proclaimation with me all the way across the world.

Maybe I had dreams.

Or did I really?

Some people say that dreams are a waste of time. That we should always think realistically. Well, if Shalina and I did not dream, things could have been very different for Alpha Omega. Yes, it was discouraging at times. Probably a whole big chunk of it was discouraging. Especially when you make nasi lemak for 10 people and nobody shows up (hey, at least we were hopeful). Or when you go embarass yourself and be all enthusiastic about things and nobody even takes a second look. Not fun knocking on doors asking people if they wanted to know more about Jesus and only to have them look at you like you're retarded. I must admit that I did almost give up. Hah.. maybe I even did. But God did not. He had things in mind that none of us could ever dream of. His goodness is proven to be true today. And He is still working.

That's just a phase you may say. Maybe China was also just a phase. I mention China, cos it's a "hot topic" among friends right now since a group of them just came back from the trip this year. So it reminds me of my days in China. I was so fired up then. I wanted to do so much. I wanted to change so much. To make a difference. To say "Hey, all you people who are living so comfortably in your own secured and protected lives....... WAKE UP!!". But maybe I was shouting more at myself.

Right now though, it feels like I'm in a whole new phase of life again. Feels weird. Feels quiet... Why do you want me here? What can I do? This almost seems empty. Well .. maybe it's good. A good time to be still... and know that He is STILL God. Also a good reminder - of dreams I may have had once as a child.

Lord, please remind me again.

"It's like rerouting a hurricane and finding a parking place in downtown Manhattan."

As iron sharpens iron..

There's brokenness,
There's pain,
There's healing,
There's strengthening.
There is a cross.


Then there's a miracle....
Something that is "infinitely more than we ever dare to ask or imagine" (Eph.3:20).